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Summer Stories 2010 (highlights )

#SummerStories

I thought I would no longer go back to anonymous blogging. There were so many reasons why, which perhaps I would commit to a post some other time.

What made me come back is a huge sense of gratefulness. The friendship, the words, acceptance and mostly the silent support I felt, that so many countless , and in parts faceless bloggers & online friends gave to me. Is it silly to say, that through blogging I felt this energy, I cannot put into words, but were results of me putting my words,myself "out there" ? I guess, some will understand, and some still need to experience it, to fully understand it.

There are simply many wonderful blessings I have enjoyed and am enjoying in life, I can count and relate, but for now, I shall share random images, and hopefully during the Autumn, and Winter seasons, I could write them all and share them with you.

It is impossible to return in kind and in words, the support I have received at the most difficult time in my life. In my humble way, the only way to do it is spread: hope. Perhaps, to someone who is simply silently following. In the core, I realise this is what I think of, when I share myself online. I want to spread hope to someone, who was like me once upon a time: a silent reader.

Thank you so very much all of you out there! Specially to those people, who never judged me for the confused thoughts and words, I let go long ago, in the world wide web.

Summer Images

Littlest on a Sloep

Our angel on a sloep, after a long day on the lake and different canals. Image was taken 4th of August, around 8 pm

Friendship

Middle daughter and her former classmate from her Dutch preparatory school, unexpectedly meet in a playground after the family picked me up from the university, and we headed to cool ourselves in a nearby lake. Image taken 8th of August.

Simple Pleasures

My first day at the Amsterdam-Maastricht Summer University was culminated by a lunch in front of The Royal Palace of Amsterdam. Image taken 9th of August.

An Evening on Penquet

A collage of our evening on a friend's sailing yacht. I asked his permission to blog about him, and also share this image online. You don't see it here but he is paralysed from waist down, and sits on a wheelchair for three years now. Image was taken 14th of August.

Sail Amsterdam

Sail Amsterdam! An event that only happens every five years in the Netherlands. The collage of images were taken on "Het Ij" Image taken 22nd of August. I have to grrringly note here, it's because I was irresponsibly wearing thin clothes that I caught this cold virus, that I am still dealing it four weeks later. LOL But it was worth it! :D

What I Did Last Summer

A collage of "What I Did Last Summer in Amsterdam". I got the certificate on the day I chose this image to be the picture of the day for 365. The image of the certificate was taken 27th of August.

I hoped you enjoyed taking a peek of the highlights of our Summer. There are so many more but that's it for now. :)

If you have ever been chronically depressed, felt sheer hopelessness or have had thoughts of suicide . Please try to think, remember, that everything can be overcome. I look at these images, and I can almost forget the years I fought and struggled. I still fight and struggle but life is so much better now because I am at peace with my ailment. I live one day at a time of the 365, I am thankful to be blessed with.

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hegemone said over 1 year ago ...

Oh yeah, I'm definitely happy to read this post. I'm at work so I can't take too much time reviewing the photos, but from what I have checked out it looks like quite the summer, and I admire your creative, organizational and photography skills. You are always such a giver, even when going through your own trials and tribulations, surely I hope that trait will never leave you, and really I have no worry that that would even happen. Keep changing, keep growing, but don't lose that sweetness and kindness.

skald said over 1 year ago ...

What lovely pictures my dear and what lovely post. I understand this post. I also remember the time you were a silent reader. At the time I started blogging on SC I was not recovered after having lost my daughter in law in and accident just before Christmas. I had, had many very hard years. I have never been chronically depressed or depressed at all but I also needed to come to terms with things.

For years there had been so many bad things happening over and over again due to my sons conditions then, the elder ones. I had so many fights for him. All kinds of things that I don't care to talk about on line but i could tell you in private. Also i had so many other things going at the same time. Taking care of small grandchildren at the same time as having sick parents. My father died and them I was talking care of mum with Alzheimer. Fighting to get her the right treatment and get her in the right home. Endless things. All this came in perspective when I started blogging. It made me happier. I have always been a happy person so I tried to continue my own life and doing all those things. Swimming, playing the piano or singing. Well my dear you know those things. I only wanted to say that bog can do good. It did you good and it did me good. We found friends on line. Not that we did not have them elsewhere too.

I have written dairies all my life but the blog helped me put things in perspective. I realized how lucky I am really in life. Maybe I had forgotten it for a while. Dear Paper this has become a whole blog and I am not making sense. I just wanted to say I understand what you said so well. :_) lol Sorry.

paper said over 1 year ago ...

@ heggies - Thank you, Heggies! (((warmest embrace))) I hope I can be able to discipline myself to write out all the stories of the Summer like I planned. I had a long time to chew on the privacy, and sharing images here. I rather like the control we have over in the other place.

But, I feel if not for the anonymous connections I have made, I might not have made the curve necessary to reach the place where I am now. As the saying goes, one has to take the thorns with the roses. If what I share here will be used against me, then it is a small inconvenience compared to those, I hope, I could help and inspire, like I was inspired by other bloggers before me

paper said over 1 year ago ...

@ skald - I love long comments!!! It is what I missed most. :)

I'll be preparing dinner and getting back in an hour or so. Love to you, dear friend!

lucyt said over 1 year ago ...

Paper ~ I lurv this post. It's been far too long girl. These kinds of images just remind me how special you are. Grateful for each day right?

papyrus said over 1 year ago ...

@ lucyliciousness - I missed our blogging interactions, me lovie!!!!!!!!! Sorry for addressing you, under yet again a new username! I hope, hope, hope that mr. yakkstr will be able to help me. But I am determined to stick it out, obviously my lingual talents in coming up with another word for paper is being challenged! :D

I was nostalgic the last couple of days, thinking how you were one of the most important link to my new life. How a random act of kindness could mean so much, can influence one.

BTW, I am rather sleepy so I might forget if I don't ask now...do you like clogs? And if you do, could you pleeaaaaaaaaaase message me in our other place your shoe size, baby? :D

It's loooooooooooooong overdue, and I STILL have the gifts for skald and dbabe. :( I really want to send them out before end of September.

The reason behind this is worthy of a blog, I feel strong enough to write now. It has something to do with remnants of depression. I am not so sure if you remember me writing to you about it. Thank you for always telling me how I could take time, you don't know how much I appreciated your generosity, not only with the gifts but simply understanding, what I could not put into words.

I have not found time and a good opportunity to tell you how much the littlest love the book. How many tantrums blow ups it has prevented. hahahaha

@ skald - I hope you were able to read my comment to lucy. I think, I already wrote you a long time ago, that I have a present for you from lucy and I want to say, my deepest apologies for not being able to send it sooner. :(

Do you like clogs, too? It would be so lovely if I can send each one of you a pair. That is if you like them! It would give me/us so much pleasure.

I remember so well our exchange of messages about where you are at life when you initially joined the site we just met. It motivated me more to try harder to see how I can live by focusing on doing what makes me happy, simple pleasures in life.

You mentioned, that I might be disappointed if ever we meet, but I don't think I will because through the years I have read, and followed you, I only admired you more.

I admire your humor, the tenacity to go on , your sensitivity, your generosity. I can't explain it but reading you calms me.

All the pictures you see, I think of you, infernal,quiet and uni, when I took them. I am not sure if you still remember the blog where I posted a picture of the littlest, she was perhaps 5, 6 or 9 months old, and she was reaching out for the tulip which was in the vase at the center of our table, and later on I used it for the cover of my self-published poetry book. I dedicated that blog to you, infernal, quiet and uni. I'll send the link to you via email, just in case you cannot recall. :)

I am deleting all my blogs there, you see, and archiving them in a private blog, so I hope to send the link to you before I completely delete my four years worth of blogs. I never thought I would do that again, but I think it is for the best.

Again, I love long comments, and I have always felt a connection to you, dearest skald. I am envisioning you visiting me/us, and we could visit Anne Frank Huis together, then we could somehow experience together the presence of the most admired memorable journalist . Do you already have a personal copy of her diary in Icelandic, btw? Just in case you don't like clogs. :)

skald said over 1 year ago ...

Dear Paper. I hardly know where I shall start answering you. Let me first of all say that I think you are such a wonderful person and you have fought your illness so well. I have seen people who give up to it.

I remember the picture of the little girl. I would however be most thankful that you send me the blog. I would like to read it again. Your poetry book I want to see. I know it is lovely.

I did not know about Lucies present. LUcy thank you.

Yes, I read Anna's Franks diaries in Icelandic when I was quite young. I saw the picture later. it touched me. I agree with you, the simple little things in life are the things that make us happy.

I am glad for you because you have P and the girls. Yes, I think I like clogs. But no, presents please. The greatest present you have already given me. Your friendship.

Dear Paper. I got to go now but thank so much.

lucyt said over 1 year ago ...

@ Paper.... just sent you a long letter in that other place (fb)

@ Skald, oh yes indeed pressies... I sent a box or two around the globe with a little bit of Australia in it, a gift for all the people I have met and love.

I just adore the fact we have all been friends over such vast distances, yet in that distance a closeness is cherrished.

papyrus said over 1 year ago ...

@ skald - Thank you! I'll email the link to the blog, and to the poetry book, which is still viewable online. :)

Ugh, I must've imagined I already wrote about ucy's pressies in a private message, and that I am unavailable to send it because we are simply a chaotic family, happy but chaotic, lol. I really must make a checklist and double check it, to see what I have truly done, and written.

I would love to see the Diary of Anne Frank in film, with the girls. We never have done it yet, I saw it as a little girl, even before I read the book. Actually, watching the film made me want to read the book, and later on dream of going to see the place where she wrote her diary.

Awww, but Christmas is coming soon, and pressies to open are fun! :D

Nighty, nite, dear friend. Please don't ever feel pressured if you cannot reply, I am just happy to be able to be near all of you, dear friends, feel again, how it was...interacting through blogs. :)

@ lucy - I replied back! I was afraid I would lose what I typed because it is acting strange like you said in your most recent post.

Nighty, nite, luv! :)

yakkstr said over 1 year ago ...

Try to log in as paper but with the password you used for paper@

paper said over 1 year ago ...

copy-pasting the comment from the previous post:

@yakkstr - Please, no apologies! :) I would have tried, and tried again some other way because I know you are busy, and have another life, too besides yakkstr.

I'm very, very, very grateful that is sorted out, though. Thank you so much for all the things you do for this site, for us. It means a lot.

skald said over 1 year ago ...

Lucy Thanks so much again and I agree it is so wonderful that we all became friends on SC and the friendship holds, in spite of distance and also if some of us don't contact for a long time. We are most of us on FB and there we share games of something so we know of each others existence. I am looking forward to get a piece of Australia. That big land. Yes it is a continent. :-) (((((Hugs))))

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