Gym-nastics Plan

Im kind of at a stand still with my weightloss, im down 12 and have stayed down 12. I fully admit i've lost a bit of the forward motion. Salads are a bit less frequent and I have gotten some take out for lunch, shame shame. The excersize I had started to implement has gone unrecorded by myself so it feels like it hasn't been done because I havnt done it purposefully, but I think im about just as active as I was and thats not all that active. Im thinking now is the time for me to make my move on the gym, im going to call the owner and tell him I pretty much only wanna join for the tanning beds and hot tub and try my bestest to speedy that along but still sign up this week.

I have sort of devised a plan, im not sure if it will work or not cause I havn't spoken to anyone else involved, just one of my crazy plans I concocted up in my head.

I've been thinking a lot about this gym and how I would go about actually using it and not just donating the membership fee. Thats always been my problem with gyms is not actually going bc its so goddamn inconvenient.

There is a place in town called Star Spangled Gymnastics, its in what used to be a grocery store and the only reason I know its called that is because of the window chalk sign. They arnt in the phone book so I can't call them up. I am fairly sure someone called Melanie owns it bc she came to us a while ago for an estimate. No doubt its a small town little rinkadink place, im not even sure what they do there. I looked in the windows and see a ton of mats and things like that. There is a little sign that notifies enrolled people the date due for fees has changed....Im well aware its a gymnastics place, but what I want to know is if my son can do it or enroll, if they have some kind of Toddler/Preschool Gymnastics. I've been hesitant to call, not knowing for sure who even runs the place makes it seem like some kind of private club...

The idea I had was that if I could get Remington in for some kind of hour long gymnastics thing, he can do flips and cartwheels and things on the matts and I can go to the gym and excersize myself. Immediate problems I can think of is that if there is a toddler program it might be only once a week or less, that wont help much with me trying to go to the gym 3-4 times a week. Then the problem that is even more likely, the odds i'd be physically capable of leaving Remi there is quite unlikely...I'd be more likely to volunteer helping to teach the class. lol...I just know I would think it was too cute a scene to miss and stay, take a roll of film each time.

I just know he would do so well in an activity like that. He has so much energy, he is so brave, and so unbelievably coordinated. The kid has amazing balance and athleticism. Bravery is a must with any sort of sport that requires you to blindly leap through the air head first.

Im just unrolling my big idea, for all I know there is no toddler time at the Gymnastics place and you must be 4 to participate. In that event ill be disapointed, and have to figure out some other way I can excercize with a shred of convenience. Times like this I wish I was one of those freaks that liked getting up in the mornings. Im totally incapable of that though. It has to happen after work or after Remi is in bed. Sometimes between 6pm and midnight is what would be doable.

Playing poker last night I was talking to a man, don't remember how it came up but he was telling me how cr, Oh I remember! He got off the phone and mumbled something about a bitch, I was like, "What?", he said, "Oh that was just my ex wife, you want her? You can have her, I dont want her, shes crazy."...I sort of laughed or something idk...then he went on, "My wife now is crazy though too! That woman wakes up every single morning at 5am and runs on the hamster wheel, no matter what, she could have been up all night long with the grandbaby and she will still get on it at the stroke of 5 am."...I just said something like, wow, that dedication... Anywhoo! People do it....for some its just sheer desire to torture themselves, they are like me and hate it but do it anyway cause they love pain and the end result, then there are the freaks that just love getting up early. I wish I was one of those freaks, and one of those that loves pain....but im not...

I am a night owl, sleep is totally optional for me, with no problems at all not even a yawn I can stay up all night, I mean alllllll night. Sure come sun up im pretty fucking tired but after a po of coffee im able to function into the next evening....Point is, for some folks the moment t he sun sets they are out cold and simply cannot stay conscious. My dad is like that. I have to talk myself into sleeping, "Alright, if you dont get to bed right now you wont get 6 hours of sleep and tomorrow will suck, go to bed, shut the tv off, put your tea down, go climb into bed, dont play bubble pop on your phone all night just shut it off and sleep."...But no matter what time I go to bed, cause ive tested it many times. I can go to sleep at 8pm, or 4am and im equally tired at 7am. I feel the same in the morning no matter if I get 12 hours of sleep or only 4.

Sleeping in, thats different...Im great at sleeping in and its the only time I ever wake up feeling refreshed and ready for the day; when I wake up at noon. I feel great at noon no matter if I got 4 hours of sleep or 12 hours of sleep.

Isn't that weird? Ya I know, im some sorta freak...but this is why waking up at the ass crack of dawn to excersize, really isn't an option, I think I'd sooner put a bullet in my head, than put myself through that torture.

So if the gymnastics plan doesnt work out (it is kind of a long shot though it would be ideal for me), im just gonna hafta go in the evenings some days after Remi goes to sleep for the night, and some days maybe right after work...Prolly not though...See I just hate missing any time with my baby. I hate it. Especially if its for something im not getting paid for or something I wont totally enjoy. I would have a very difficult almost impossible time saying, "Phil go get Remi from daycare after work, im going to go to the gym, ill be home for dinner."....Ack, that just sounds TERRIBLE! This sounds terrible too: "That was a yummy dinner guys, alright, Remi you have fun with daddy this evening, mommy is going to the gym, ill be back for bedtime."...Bleh! Yea the only way i'd be able to go to the gym without feeling like a terrible mommy would be after he goes to sleep. Thats the only way I go play poker without feeling guilty, Remi is already in bed! In fact, its an extreme rarity that I ever go do anything for myself before Remington is unconscious.

Anywhoo, just gonna have to face facts and accept reality and wrap my mind around the near certainy that the only time I will go excersize is at 9pm, monday, tuesday and thursday...Wed is poker, Friday is Friday that would just be a crime. The house would suffer...oh well.