I'm taking a gamble here. I generally don't go into my dating life detail like I used to. I was finding that it was bad karma. But I met someone a couple of weeks ago and I'm still trying to decode him.
He's not my usual type. If it weren't for the fact that he is retired Army Reserve, he'd be completely foreign. He's exactly as tall as I am. Has a small bit of belly, is a nerd. He's cute but not the usual type of cute I go for.
I'm not sure why I said yes to our first date. I guess I was tired of trying the same thing over and over.
What he does have going for him is that he doesn't even flinch when he finds out about my past. My weird family. My very simple life. I find that fascinating. Rarely have a met a man who either runs from that or tries to fix it. He just listens.
Then, more recently, he said something that scares me! He's been very verbal about his feelings. I've actually had to tell him I can't take so much of that. I want to hear it, but only when I'm sitting face to face. Then today he said the scary thing. He said he wants to treat me like a Princess. I physically recoiled.
I have taken so much pride in being independant that the idea of being treated like a silly pampered girl hit me all wrong. I asked him if he could just treat me special. Even that made me a bit uneasy. I don't consider myself any more special than the next guy. But he is being sincere and I have to respect that.
It's all new territory. To find someone who doesn't fit my preconceived mold. Someone who accepts me just as I am. Someone who wants to treat me good and make me happy. I'm really wanting to put a lot of effort into seeing if this is the thing I've been waiting for.
I had to tell him that I while I like him a lot I'm just too crispy around the edges to just jump into like him. He's okay with that. Said he's just happy to have me in his life.
We'll be celebrating Valentines together tomorrow. It's the first time in years that I've had someone to do that with. It's kinda nice. :)
YAY!!! Thats so exciting! I must admit I dont understand why you wouldn't want to be treated like a princess, I think it means the same as being treated "special"...I gotta assume its just some sort of aversion to be treated like someone who is special...Cause I love being treated like a princess and expect it : ) Thats how Phil hooked me, i'd never been called a princess or treated like one ever before in my life, and he called me his princess and treated me like one, weak in the knees I went. Im totally down with equality and women being independent and none of that hinges on someone else putting you at princess level. You get to still be you you can still expect to be your independent self, but you can be an independent princess too : ) I hope you have a glorious Valentines Day uni, you deserve it! Let it ride!