planning my day positively...

I'm in a pretty good mood right now.

well actually, better than i felt yesterday. i dont know if you read my last blog but i really feel shitty.

i guess its maybe because i did something different today.

today, when i woke up i have the same bad feeling again.

it didnt help that some people in the house still hates me.

i hate the negative feeling because even though i am over the hate between me and my sister's. i dont have the control of her hate towards me.

i give up on her. seriously if this is the type of relationship that she want i wont force her anymore.

i know you might say time would heal this but i just dont care. i did my best and if she continues to be like this, i just wont let it affect me anymore.

i want to be happy and i dont want the negative shit in my life.

even teh sound of her voice has this negative shit on me. i hate it. i tried talking to her today and she ignored me.

its so immature that im so fuckign over it.

anyway, back to the positive sides.

with all the negative shit piling up on me, i decided that its time i changed myself and not try to change anyone.

so while taking a shower, i told myself that today would be a positive day.

i will finish my work in time.

i will think more positive thoughts.

i will finish my chores.

i will let positive vibes into me.

i will be happy today...

and you know what...

it works....

i feel great right now. im not saying that i was happy and shit all day long because there are some thigns that i fucking hate and that irritated me. but overall i was okay.

perhaps this is something i should do everyday.

have a mental exercise about being positive.

i should do that more.

i mean it didnt give me an a whole day of happiness but at least i am more positive and i feel okay.

its the little happiness that matters most to me and im happy im experiencing that with this positive planning of my day...

you guys should try it.

say some positive word before your start day...

it may not give you a big impact that you expect but at least it can unburden some negativity in you...

well thats all.

keep on blogging!!!