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Thoughts on New Year's Eve (31.12.11)

20:48

Saturday

I am shaking my head and chiding myself silently because I am SERIOUSLY trying to come up with other words to describe how I feel, than feeling "blessed" and being very grateful for this feeling. It's ridiculous. It's like going against who I am to not stand out nor be paranoid that I will be "hated" because I am expressing how I do feel. After all it is my way of giving thanks to whatever greater power is out there that has allowed me to receive "blessings" I am truly grateful for. No, I won't end the year that way. Everyone has a right to expressing themselves, I respect others, and I hope others would give me the same courtesy.

Somewhere on my desktop is a draft I wrote about not having New Year's Resolution for a long time now; it was my attempt to go back in my past and document some chapters in my life I kept pushing at the back of my consciousness. But I don't have time to finish it now, so I will do as I always have done with blogging anonymously and write thoughts flow as they come.

No resolutions, only small projects that reinforces all that I strive for my family and myself: simplicity in life, harmonious existence and good health.

Good health! I feel tomorrow I can go back to my training. I have a week to make myself strong enough to finish the 10 kms race in Egmond aan Zee a week from tomorrow.

Tomorrow, we will have a family get together. We are bringing a home-made raspberry charlotte. The link is the Dutch recipe I am trying out for the first time tonight, and I'll give you the English translation if it's any good! I'll be preparing two, one the family and I will eat after the fireworks at midnight, and the one we are giving to B tomorrow. This will be the first home-made dessert for my Home-made365!

Home-made365, a project I'll tell you more about in my first blog on the 1st of January,2012!

2012...wishing you all a prosperous New Year, and 12 months worth of love, positive energy and good health!

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starchini said 5 months ago ...

Congrats on all your blessings : ) nothing wrong with blogging about it! I hope twenty twelve brings a thousand more!

hegemone said 5 months ago ...

Happy New Year! I am so happy to read of your blessed feelings, your joy, just the clear happiness and relaxation at letting your words flow. I hope it all continues to go well for you and 2012 is even better every day that comes.

paper said 5 months ago ...

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaapppppppppppy New Year, star & heggies*!!!!!!!!!

(((((((((((((((((group huggies)))))))))))))))))))))

2012 is 1 hour and 5 minutes old here!!! :)

paper said 5 months ago ...

Thanks, star! Wishing you the same! I may not leave comments but I hope you are aware that I am one of your avid blog follower. I admire your genuineness, and hope this year, I could be more liberated in writing how I feel, and share point of views.

Keep being the fantabulous you because you are empowering like that! :)

paper said 5 months ago ...

Thanks, star! Wishing you the same! I may not leave comments but I hope you are aware that I am one of your avid blog follower. I admire your genuineness, and hope this year, I could be more liberated in writing how I feel, and share point of views.

Keep being the fantabulous you because you are empowering like that! :)

paper said 5 months ago ...

Heggies! I miss you girl!!!!!!!!!!! Going to read your blog as soon as I served the family the raspberry charlotte. I hope it turns out well because otherwise, we won't have anything else to bring to the family gathering tomorrow.

I've said it before but it's worth reiterating, you are always in my thoughts and I always wish that you are well.

queenparanoia said 5 months ago ...

happy new year ate papel! i hope 2012 brings you more blessings and happiness! and i know what you feel! i feel a sense of peace this new year. its so nice.. :D

paper said 5 months ago ...

Manigong bagong taon, queenie! Maraming salamat, kapatid sa lahat ng suporta, pagmamahal. pag-intindi at sa iyong pagiging totoong kaibigan! Dasal at hiling ko rin sa bawat araw ang iyung kaligayahan at pagtamo ng iyung minimithi sa buhay. :) (((mahigpit na yakap)))

(Sarap magsulat ng halos purong Filipino! :D)

queenparanoia said 5 months ago ...

super like!

starchini said 5 months ago ...

Gosh paper, thank you so much, you are too kind. I love reading you too!

paper said 5 months ago ...

queenie :)))

star I'll be more visible on your posts, and not simply lurk. Even if most of the time, it will be perhaps just a nod, that says, "I get you, girl!"

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