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Leaking a Little Crazy

I just need to vent a little. I think this is just a side effect of PMS, so don't take it seriously.

Work. I like my job, but there are a couple of irritation factors I could live without. One of them is the "lady" who keeps dumping a certain high profile daily report in my lap at the last minute. Supposedly she has had health issues, so I'm supposed to be all sympathetic. While I don't wish ill health on anyone, I still don't understand why she has all her numerous doctor appts in the middle of the day. When I had my broken knee I took off two weeks and came back to work on crutches. I scheduled my physical therapy around my work. I don't see why one admin gets coddled and the other is held to some high work ethic. It looks like I may have this woman's report to do for the next week. She didn't even have the courtesy to ask me herself but asked another Admin to tell me that she might be out for a while. I really don't need the extra work and undoubtably no one will acknowledge that I did extra.

I'm tired of trying to reign in my creative side. I know life doesn't exactly reward my eccentric brain. Well, mine or any other creatively motivated thinker. It just seems like I'm forced to fit into the logical and rational mold that society approves of. All my decisions need to be based that way in order for me to have even mediocre success. It's wearing me down. I need something or someone to see and accept my illogical side for what it is and actually like it. I already like it, but it's not enough. This part of my rant is really not well thought out and ..... I don't care!

I'm tired of my loud neighbors. I think I've developed a reputation as the bitchy woman in apartment A. I think the parents of those loud kids probably think I'm being unreasonable. I wish I cared what they thought of me. I really don't. I'd be happy for them to move or me. Of course I'm not going to go to the manager. All he can do is tell them to be quiet, but I doubt that will accomplish much. I think it's time for me to consider a noise machine or something so that I don't lose more sanity or sleep over it.

Okay, that's leaking enough crazy for now.

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skald said over 1 year ago ...

Oh noisy neighbors, no fun having them. I wish I knew an answer to what you could do about them. It's also not nice having to fit in to a mold and be just like all others, not being able to nurture ones creative side. And that woman. I just don't understand how some people can get away with everything when others are not allowed anything. Too much of such people. Hope things will turn better for you and very soon.

hegemone said over 1 year ago ...

I sympathize with picking up slack at work. It feels like that's all I've really done some days, while neglecting my own because somehow the managers think the other stuff is higher priority. What I don't get is that if they see these people are falling behind, why not do something about that instead of just pushing the work off on someone else. Noisy neighbors do stink...I'll be hoping they have to suddenly move very soon, some people are just maddeningly inconsiderate.

uniquely-learning said over 1 year ago ...

skald - I think the extra work dumped on me without her even asking me herself is the worst of it.

hege - the distribution of work here is laughable. I shouldn't complain because I do have a job, but ....

skald said over 1 year ago ...

Uni. That is so unfair. She could ask you herself. I agree.

mimi54 said over 1 year ago ...

Hey, yoonie, I like your illogical side! Trying to fit into a logical, socially approved mold is exhausting and creates resentment.

uniquely-learning said over 1 year ago ...

mimi - yes! that's exactly what I'm talking about! I feel so crazy when I try and tired after a while.

lucyt said over 1 year ago ...

are you frustrated? leak some more crazy, otherwise you might explode.

Being abused at work is always difficult to deal with, you don't want to sound whinny but you also need to make it known that you are not the rubbish tip of the office for everyone elses shortfalls. (I speak from great experience here)

There is also the creative? frustrated.... I reckon you need a good dose of weirdness to balance it all out. Along with a big girly hug.

uniquely-learning said over 1 year ago ...

Lu - I guess I am just frustrated. I'm feeling used and misunderstood which is a deadly combination as I am also in PMS week! I'd say leaking crazy is about the nicest outcome here.

lucyt said over 1 year ago ...

Absolutely, don't forget good coffee, perhaps a wine or two, chocolate and evil eye!

quietone said over 1 year ago ...

People don't know what you think, know or need (or in your case) don't need unless you tell them. Never lose that creative side of you.. just don't wait until it all explodes. good luck~

uniquely-learning said over 1 year ago ...

quiet - at work I think holding my tongue is the best way. No one likes a whiner. At home it's pointless to complain. I am working on telling people who I feel closest to that I need more "creative/illogical" room and less sensible/logical. I'm hoping to hang onto it all and hopefully avoid a complete melt down.

freedom said over 1 year ago ...

It seems no matter how hard you work, your bosses expect something more.

That creative side is a beautiful thing to hold onto, it keeps you sane thoughout all of life's b.s.

uniquely-learning said over 1 year ago ...

freedom - yes, the work load never decreases and the acknowledgement never increases :( I think if I didn't have the creative side to balance me out I'd have gone more insane by now.

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