My interpretation of who YOU are.

This is my attempt to be psychic. I could not go to each and every person on Yakkstr and try this, so I just typed one that fits the people I have read, received comments from or talked to the most over the last year, here and in our previous life where we casted out our soul's words. Most are directed to specific members of Yakkster, please tell me how close I got to discribing you. If you feel like more than half of these discribe you a little too well, that's probably because they were directed to you. I'm not going to name names, but *wink wink nudge nudge* I probably commented on a recent post for you to come read this.

You have a strong need for other people to like you and for them to admire you. Many times you will "go along" just to avoid a confrontation. After a disagreement, you will often be the first to apologize, even though it isn't necessary or required on your part. But you shouldn't become disappointed when others take only a surface impression of you; you have facets of your personality of which very few others have been allowed a glimpse. You value your privacy more than most.

You have a tendency to be critical of yourself. You are frequently your own worst enemy, always searching for imperfections with yourself. It seems you are not happy unless you are finding fault with your appearance, your behavior, or your attitudes. Sometimes this spills over into your evaluation of others. People disappoint you because you try to hold them to the same high standards which you set for yourself. This is not a self-destructive criticism, but is instead a form of positive reinforcement. You, more than anyone, are aware of your past failings but you have also learned great lessons from them. You know where your weaknesses are and you can fortify them. You don't allow those little imperfections to weigh you down. More important, you are aware of your strengths and have learned to amplify them. You are an optimist; your glass is always half-full, never half-empty.

You have a great deal of unused capacity which you have not turned to your advantage. You have an inclination to procrastinate. That is not all bad - many times you will turn a problem over in your mind, examining it from all aspects, then put it away - ignoring it until the deadline for action grows closer. Then, usually in the middle of the night, your subconscious will deliver the perfect solution. Right out of the blue. Sometimes you feel at the limit of your resourcefulness, stretched to the breaking point. You have a difficulty in saying "no" when others ask for your help and often find yourself with too full a plate. You would be better served if you learned to be more forceful when others make demands on that one, irreplaceable commodity; your time.

While you have some personality weaknesses, you are generally able to compensate for them.  You are a survivor, always concealing your "hole card," keeping something in reserve. You often allow people to underestimate you, not feeling comfortable with the raised expectations of others. You have cultivated the ability to "land on your feet." Lately you have been more willing to confront those inner traits and the shell of denial has been cracked. If you are not careful, you can allow yourself to refocus upon those imperfections, often forcing aside other, more productive attitudes. You have a great deal to offer the world if only you learn to recognize it in yourself. You are more capable than you think.

Your sexual adjustment has presented some problems for you.  As a child you probably felt you were ready for your first - umm, dalliance - a little ahead of most of your contemporaries. You have, over time, come to grips with your inner feelings and are now in better control of your emotions. You are much more comfortable with your sexuality now. The best description for you might be "late bloomer." Other, more sexually precocious friends seemed to take the lead. As a young woman you felt within a white-hot, searing cauldron of emotion for which you could not find suitable release. I see you now as someone to whom a hug or a close embrace can be as fulfilling as something more active.

Disciplined and controlled on the outside, you tend to be worrisome and insecure on the inside. I can see you tossing and turning, running over past mistakes and future uncertainties when you should be sleeping. Leave the past in the past. Learn from it but focus yourself forward. Concentrate upon your strengths and abilities. You see so many problems and obstacles, most of which never develop. Remember to take time to smell the roses. You have maintained the external appearance of calm and poise for so long that many of those attitudes have become automatic. It is that very attention to detail which has contributed to your success. Be wary of developing an impenetrable exterior; it keeps danger out, but also keeps you bottled up within.

At times you have serious doubts as to whether you have made the right decision or done the right thing. You must keep in mind that others place great faith in you and your abilities and wouldn't have made that investment if you weren't ready for the challenge. Usually those doubts manifest themselves in second thoughts and "what if's." You are so goal-oriented that you are constantly searching for some way to improve your performance.

You prefer a certain amount of change and variety and become dissatisfied when hemmed in by restrictions and limitations. The bureaucratic attitude infuriates you; you have little patience with those who just "get by." That doesn't mean you are wildly experimental, however. "A place for everything and everything in its place" could still apply to much of what you do.

You pride yourself on being an independent thinker and do not accept others' opinions without satisfactory proof. And the proof has to be on your terms, not just formula and hypothesis. The understanding must come from within. Fast talking, slick sales pitches turn you off. You have, however, proven to have an open minded attitude. You are willing to listen to what other people have to say before making your decision.

You have found it unwise to be too frank in revealing yourself to others.  In the past you were hurt because others did not keep the confidences you have shared. As a result you are very careful in personal relationships when it comes to secrets. By the same token, you are a person who, if trusted with secret information, will carry that confidence to your grave. Earning and keeping trust is very important to you.

At times you are extroverted, affable, sociable, while at other times you are introverted, wary, and reserved. Your mood seems to swing depending upon the reactions of those around you. You are extremely sensitive to your social environment. You do your best to make others comfortable by mirroring the emotions and attitudes which others display. On the inside you remain pretty much on the straight and narrow.

Some of your aspirations tend to be pretty unrealistic. You have a well developed imagination; if you are not careful you can lose yourself in fantasy. Often you tend to look at things the way they "should be" rather than the way they really are. Fortunately, you are a person who has learned her strengths and limitations; you seldom take on a project which you aren't sure you can complete. You prefer to taste in your mind the fruit of the tree before you plant the seed.

In the end, I can give no more encouraging words than: it does get better, trust in yourself.

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